20 years ago Mike and I started dating. But before we started dating we had a conversation.
Mike discussed with me about his dad passing and about his heart disease. He told me he was looking for a wife, not just a girlfriend. Then he posed this question: Would you be willing to marry me, have a family, and then one day you become a widow with young kids. Mike just thought that his fate would become his dad's fate. I thought, prayed, and talked with my mom for three days. I don't think as a seventeen year old you can truly comprehend what that would look like and feel like. However, I knew that the life we would create would outweigh the fate that he portrayed, every second we would have together would be worth the devastating loss in the end.
My husband almost died twice on me...but now he has a new heart...a new life...a new ending.
I am beginning to see that ending, picturing us growing old together and having him around as the boys grow older. Something that we never thought was possible, is somehow growing clearer now. The fear and worrying of his heart just stopping...is gone now. There are still things to worry about; rejection, illness, his disease coming back. But now we know that there are options. We have an amazing Transplant Team behind us for life. There is the option of another heart transplant down the road. And we have a village of friends and family to support us. I don't expect it to be easy, but I know it will be good.
Mike is progressing so well in his recovery! The tubes, lines, stiches, bandages, pacing wires, and all are slowly coming out. We are learning so much about recovery and what life looks like as a transplant recipient. The do's and don'ts of food/yard work/pools/places/and people. Doctors, nurses, PA's, therapist, and the transplant team are filling our days right now. Mike is doing so well that they are thinking of sending him home on Wednesday the 18th, 49 days in the hospital.
Mike loves his new heart and I truly think it was made for him. We do not know his donor or donor family, but we would love to get to know them. This gift is the greatest gift of all and we are so blessed that this donor family said yes. Ezekiel 36:26 is describe as the Heart Transplant verse. "And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh." I pray that Mike's donor is in Heaven rejoicing with the Lord while his heart lives on in Mike.
The next part of this journey is scary, unknown, and exciting at all the same time. A new life for the Neubert's is about to begin...and I can't wait to share it with you!
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